Yes, people come into your life, make you love them, they hurt you and leave you.
It's finally the June holidays, finally.
I fucking need a break, desperately need one.
yeah, my life has been hard, too hard that i cried fucking many times that i can hardly count.
worst than secondary school, fuck.
and, you left me, when i was so weak and you know i need your support to move on.
yet you left me. Sometimes i wonder, wonder if i really need you.
sometimes is a yes, sometimes is a no.
A yes, when i am so fucking stress up with my homework, my tests due dates, you isn't there like in the past. you are no longer the reason for my smile.
A no, when i managed to hold myself up and tell myself, "stop thinking that he is important. he is no longer in your life and i am sure you can live your life better without him."
yes, i did survive. but most of the time, i cry more than i smile.
why, why a fucking why?
the reality is too much, so much at i can no longer have the courage to face it.
I don't know how long can i take it, how much time i need to accept, and how long before i can forget you and no longer hate you.
months, years, forever?
oh well, i don't know. by the time you will forget me and get on with your life,
I am just a passer-by, someone that walked into your life for months.
you go for me, knowing that the impossibility. You hold me tight, till i hold on to you.
Then it's time to face the reality. You let me go. you fucking let go of your hand and let me fall.
I fell. hurt and now, i have to pull myself up. And you, you trying to lend me a helping hand.
This time, you are just pulling me up. you won't hold me tight anymore. And i know, i won't let you hold me too. you will just make me fall again. i am not that silly to do that.
you screw everything. my life, my heart. I was a happy girl. Then you make me like this.
But how can i blame you. Blame my heart then. you fuckingly get touched by him and accepted him.
you make your owner so sad now. is all your fault.
yes, my heart. fuck you.
and yes, you better forget him and remove him from your heart. don't make your owner miserable.
GET. OUT. OF . MY . HEART.
Got bless me. let me forget him.
I wish i can be happier. i wish.
